Everyone asks me how are you doing? The truth is I don’t really know day to day. I try to go through each day with a quiet heart as my decisions are being made. Because of so many people praying for me there is a calm like I’m being carried. It’s been two weeks since my husband ascended.
I remember our last meaningful conversation when I put my cheek next to his and whispered to him not to forget me when he got to Heaven. He said aloud, “I will never forget you in Glory... I will never.... never forget you in Glory.” And we both wept mingling our tears. He’s not crying anymore.... but I am. I guess 45 years together causes this.
It was just the three of us when he passed. G&G&G like always. The presence of God, Greg and Gayla. I was holding his hand when he left. So how am I? I will never forget the last two hours of his life.... how weak he became and how strong I became in assisting his ascending to Heaven. I know the Lord was very present in the room with us from 4 am to 6:05 when he left me. An unforgettable experience to me.
I am truly happy for him and relieved that he will never suffer again and that I know where he is. In Glory.
And me? I have my incredible family who have walked every step of this journey with me. Angela and Sean, Jake and Grace who make me smile, bring hugs and love all through out each day. Thank God they live so close! And the people of Relate Church who brought me hot meals for WEEKS! For my big brother Alan who came to stay with me the very next day. For Karen and Steve who have been so close to me through the months of caregiving. For my two private friends who came and pulled 3 chairs close to the fire in my fireplace and spent hours with me 5 days later.
I have beautiful friends all over the world who tell me I am loved. Bishops and Pastors across America who traveled here to be with me at his Legacy Memorial Service
And most of all..... the incredible Lord of Heaven and Earth, my Savior Jesus Christ who held both of our hands in and during his passage and now holds mine.
So I will be ok walking through the waves of grief and laughter. The Man would expect that of me.....
I am tight with all of you and life will continue because of each one in my life.
I humbly say thank you for the hundreds of texts, emails, calls and visits to me. I am overwhelmed by your show of support. Thank you.
From being the Wife of the greatest man I have ever known, to become the Widow of one of God's Generals now appeared in Eternity.
It's now just G&G....... one of us is finally Home. And the other one turns the page of being his helpmeet to just being God's Girl to carry on the torch of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
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