Boy has my perspective about life changed!
I CANNOT even begin to tell of the massive changes that have happened in my life in the last season- 2015 onwards.
The Loss of all things that were my 'normal' life of ministry, a MASSIVE change for me after 40+ years.... There is way too much to post here, but down the road details will be given over time. Talk about CHANGE my perspective over how I was comfortable with my ministry life! You have no idea.
The loss of both of my parents within a very short time of each other.
The loss of a hero nephew due to suffering from PTSD after major war trauma.
And now for the REALLY BIG ONE...... My husband's fight with invasive cancer - this fight is happening now, every day and every minute. We have been together 43 years at the writing of this post. He needs me and I need him! It's a fight and we are a team in this.
Leaky eyes? You bet!
Yet I must say...... when I look back at my journals, the many words and dreams the Lord had given to me, He was preparing me for all of this. The ONE thing..... the ONE thing that has remained steady and steadfast in my life is Him. Jesus. The Holy Spirit has held me upright countless days and nights and the ongoing adventure of life itself has brought many surprises that I had no idea were behind the losses.
God's purpose for my life, gives me a new perspective. After all ..... I am just one character in the Book that God is writing of my life.
Still learning..... still working on my perspectives over all....
but slowly I'm becoming more dependent and trusting in His ability to lead and take care of me. He's clearly in charge, not me.
And now Coronavirus? God's in charge of me - not you. I'm doing my part to stay safe, and God is doing His part over my life.
My perspectives have evolved over time. Is there anything too hard for God? No. period no. My part is to stay yielded to His plan for me. He can do exceedingly, abundantly above all I can think or ask, true. But submission is not submission until you have to submit to God's plan. The battle is not mine, it's the Lords. And so is my life..... every little detail of it.
Perspectives....... It's a deep vein of thought i find myself in.
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